Monday, January 17, 2011
Missing Piece - When Your Spouse Is Away
It's true that Christian is only going to be gone for two nights, but no matter how many times he goes away (or I do), no matter how long or short the time apart is, I don't get used to it. It always feels like a part of me is missing. I keep waiting to hear him laughing at something he read online, or make a joke about some political or cultural figure.
This type of situation - where another person becomes part of yourself - it sneaks up on you. At first you don't realize it's happening. But then a year or so of living together goes by and you're suddenly faced with your first separation. It's easier when you're the one going away because you have something planned to occupy your time. It's much more difficult to be the one left behind, trying to carry on with your daily routine all while missing a major piece - your spouse.
So in the meantime, I sleep in the middle of the bed (it minimizes the missing) and send good vibes Christian's way (that just generally makes me feel better). It probably doesn't hurt that I have a love-bug for a kitty.